Saturday, May 9, 2009

Change is inevitable

When i stand before the mirror now i realize how much has changed. The girl staring back at me is no longer the toddler who used to be fascinated by her reflection. she's a young individual staring back at me with inquisitive brown eyes. it seems as if an eternity has passed in the blink of an eye.

I can see scenes from my life flashing before me. The schools i attended, the games i played, friends i made. it had all been such an important part of my life. As i grew up i understood that life is not always a bed of roses. we love, we learn, we live and we grow. somewhere along the way disappointments makes us loose hope, victory makes us sure-footed, people make us feel loved. and all together this makes up our life. a life that is so much more complicated than before. everyday we become more experienced but that experience is put to test every moment. so we become vulnerable to making mistakes.

sometimes our errs are mistaken as deliberations. this is something that i can comment upon very confidently. i myself have been a "victim" of such misunderstandings.. my silence is considered my arrogance, my lack of interest as lack of knowledge, my emotions as pretense. so i find it better to keep my thoughts to myself and let people go on with their thoughts. if i can not convince them with my words how can i ever make them understand the real "me" with arguments.

yes i have changed. my priorities, my ambition, my field of thinking... nothing is the way it was . i often hear people complaining.. "you are not the same anymore, you're not the person i knew." but i guess that's okay. CHANGE IS INEVITABLE. and if you cannot accept me the way i am now chances are that you don't deserve me.